Living well

Faith as the foundation of life

All this to-ing and fro-ing about my faith and its practice makes me deeply fed up and angry and I want to let it all go. It takes up a huge amount of headspace, I spend a lot of time reading about it and thinking about it. Journaling about it and worrying about it all.  […]

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Religion as belonging

I fell into a pattern of going to church regularly. I like the fact that when you go to a Church of England service, you know what you are going to get. I especially love the singing and music. It is all written out for you in a little red book. You know what to […]

Living well

(not) Living with the flow

I am beginning to wonder if I purposefully put myself at cross purposes to the flow of life. It does feel like I struggle and batter away at things an awful lot.  Nimue commented on this post, that maybe i am not a mystic, but a magician,as I am someone who does. Maybe this is […]

creativity

Amanda Palmer vs. Nick Cave

I’ve written before about Amanda Palmer and how she makes me so uncomfortable with her work, how vulnerable and open she is. How I subscribe to her Patreon and then have to stop again and it just gets to me time and again.  hAnd yet, I adore Nick Cave’s blog ‘The Red Hand Files’, where […]

Living well

In the tension

As I continue to battle the versions of myself, I come to a conclusion.  What if the answer is in living in the tension? That the answer is yes, and… not either or, or a straight no. But yes – and!  That the answer lies in being in the middle and giving light to all […]

Living well

On not knowing

I am someone who likes certainty and clear cut answers.  Programming appeals to me because it is quite binary (hah, that’s a geek joke), this works, or it doesn’t. I need to find why it doesn’t and what I can do to get it to work.  I am a binary thinking person. I like things […]