I’m feeling a lot better since I decided to be a little freer in my spirituality, rather than adhering to Christianity. Like a carapace has fallen away from me and I am back to my old self. Although I am still worried about my body and what it will and won’t do, if I can […]
I think due to the fact that my collagen doesn’t work properly (which is part of your body’s structure) I like to create a lot of structures around me to hold me up, especially while I have been healing. I think this is why Christianity was so seductive, lots of structure, easily accessible. However, now […]
I have always loved dancing, I did ballet as a child and at school was part of a contemporary dance troupe that won a lot of competitions. We managed to convince the rugby boys that it was good to do dance, so we got to do lots of lifts and jumps. I had a lot […]
I love the concept of archetypes, I can’t even remember when I found about the idea, but I suspect it has always been there because of the vast amount of reading I have always done. An archetype is: a constantly recurring symbol or motif in literature, painting, or mythology (this usage of the term draws […]
I was Googling around a couple of weeks ago, trying desperately to find a 5 Rhythms dance class, or a version of it, near to where I live. There are plenty in London, but I find getting into London exhausting and I do it enough for work. In my Google travels I found a Red […]
Today my best friend is coming up to see my photography exhibition. This means the world to me. We’ve been friends since school and we lived together in a flat in London in our mid-twenties while she was doing an MA in Fine Art and I was working in marketing. I have always been powerfully […]
I’ve always loved fantasy and especially stories with dragons in them. I think this stems from a set of books that were beautifully illustrated in really rich colours that featured dragons that I had as a child. I love books set in the past, especially with magic and swords and all the rest of it. […]
I think a big part of me becoming a Christian was getting so ill. My body would no longer respond as it should do, essentially having a complete breakdown. Become a Christian allowed me to belong to a structure. My body is broken at a genetic level. The collagen, which forms the structure of pretty […]
I can’t do it anymore. I can’t force myself to fit in with a belief system that makes me so angry at patriarchy, at the damage it has done in the world. So that’s it, I am no longer calling myself a Christian. I desperately wanted to be. I wanted to fit in, both with […]
Here’s a funny thing. I decided not to blog on here each day as it doesn’t contribute to my main creative works. But, since I made that decision I haven’t done any writing at all. When I do write this blog, somehow I end up carrying that on and working on my main project too. […]