Living well

This blog is closing

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, about me, this blog, my exisitance and who I am.  I initially started this blog, and its predecessors because I needed a space to be able to write and not be found out. My blog under my name, Jen Farrant, was originally set up because I […]

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40 swims for 40 years

I turned 40 mid June this year. I am very much seeing it as a cause for celebration, and my friends and family, especially my husband, have helped me a great deal in that.  Recently I have been getting into open water swimming, I have always loved swimming and it has been instrumental to me […]

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Faith as the foundation of life

All this to-ing and fro-ing about my faith and its practice makes me deeply fed up and angry and I want to let it all go. It takes up a huge amount of headspace, I spend a lot of time reading about it and thinking about it. Journaling about it and worrying about it all.  […]

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Religion as belonging

I fell into a pattern of going to church regularly. I like the fact that when you go to a Church of England service, you know what you are going to get. I especially love the singing and music. It is all written out for you in a little red book. You know what to […]

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(not) Living with the flow

I am beginning to wonder if I purposefully put myself at cross purposes to the flow of life. It does feel like I struggle and batter away at things an awful lot.  Nimue commented on this post, that maybe i am not a mystic, but a magician,as I am someone who does. Maybe this is […]

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In the tension

As I continue to battle the versions of myself, I come to a conclusion.  What if the answer is in living in the tension? That the answer is yes, and… not either or, or a straight no. But yes – and!  That the answer lies in being in the middle and giving light to all […]

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On not knowing

I am someone who likes certainty and clear cut answers.  Programming appeals to me because it is quite binary (hah, that’s a geek joke), this works, or it doesn’t. I need to find why it doesn’t and what I can do to get it to work.  I am a binary thinking person. I like things […]

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Going back to paid employment

Very recently I’ve made a big and scary step to going back to paid employment, rather than being a full time freelancer. There is a lot of rhetoric out there that being self employed is the only way to be happy, the only way to have control over your life. I absolutely believed this, but […]