What does it mean? Liminal is a threshold point, normally at which a sensation is just out of reach, but not always, it can come and go. I talk of Liminal spaces being a between point, or a boundary between this world and the next. Liminal is the edge of something. I often find myself on the edge of, well it feels like everything at times. If I am in the right headspace then I can sense the edge of a tree’s boundary, it’s Liminal edge. And quite frankly, that right there probably tells you quite a lot about me.
If you are luminous then you radiate light. I’d love to flatter myself that is what I do, but I know that actually I am a long way from doing that. None the less it what I strive for – to find the light, to know the light and to share it.
So the two together are a mystical boundary, almost out of reach -sometimes fading in and out of being, but here, visible and shining with the light. I like to think of it as a shining boundary, which can shift about!
I believe in the light, which I use as a shorthand for that terribly loaded and misused word – GOD. The Quakers speak of ‘that of God in everyone’. That’s the light. The Quakers also use that word too, mainly because it means different things to each person and doesn’t bring the baggage that God does. I have had my own spiritual practice for nearly twenty five years, and I have been on a deep spiritual journey around various traditions, including witchcraft, druidry, occultism, Buddhism and Christianity.
I am a Christian, albeit the world’s most reluctant one, I am leery of ‘The Church’ and the atrocities committed in its name through the years. I’m still rather uncomfortable proclaiming myself as such, and I think there are an awful lot of Christians who preach hate and judgement, which is not my understanding of how to be a follower of Jesus. Quite frankly even saying this leaves me feeling raw and vulnerable, like I am admitting something bad, yep, I feel awkward saying I follow Jesus. This shapes a lot of how I think about the church and Christianity.
The light is also the opposite of dark, I have suffered from depression since I was a teenager (I’m in my late thirties now) and I want to stay happy and contented. This is something I have to work on, although depression can sometimes take hold, there are actions I can do to head it off, or to manage it better. If I live my life in a certain way then I am more likely not to get depressed. But I have to work on it. Liz Gilbert talks about ‘stubborn joy’. This is what I need to do, work at staying joyful and happy. Easier said than done when the depression monster is lurking around the corner, but it is work that must be done.
I want to be a positive force in this work, giving joy, mainly through my writing and photography, but also how I interact with the world. This takes effort, I have to focus on it.
Finally, I’m a photographer. Finding the light, and working with it, is vital to good images.
I suffer from a chronic illness and that impacts my ability to do all the things that I want to do, so saying I am a writer and a photographer and an arts consultant is actually quite focused compared to what I used to be. Amazing really.
My work elsewhere:
Chronic illness & disability
EDS-HT is a bit of a sod to be honest, it affects the collagen, which is in just about every part of your body. It comes with chronic pain and fatigue and deeply affects my life, although I have just about learned to have a good life with it. A lot of that has been down to surrendering to God. None the less I would have it taken away in an instance if I could. You can read more here.
And the rest….
I am a deeply spiritual creative soul. However, this side of myself is in conflict with the old me who was on track to be a director at 30, wearing suits and taking no nonsense. Even now, almost ten years on from that life I still struggle with it. The voice that tells me to get on and make a spreadsheet and do things in the most efficient way. I am a deeply technical person, which is why I provide practical consultancy for business and individuals.
I want to spend my days creating, sharing the light and so on… which I do, and I run an arts and cultural consultancy, where I have found a good balance by bringing my business skills to the arts sector. This site was set up as a counter-point to that, a place to experiment and be free, not worrying about what my clients might think of me.
I live in Essex, the U.K., just outside of London, in a not great part of town
I am blessed with the world’s most supportive and loving husband, Gavin. Each day I give thanks for us being together. I have a springer spaniel called Buster. Between the two of them I was able to get well again after a month flat out in bed and using a wheelchair full time.
In order to stay well I do yoga, swimming and walking. I am thankful to be able to do these again, after a time when I couldn’t leave the house without a wheelchair.
Welcome to my space!
If you would like to work with me you can find out more here, or ping me an email liminalluminous AT gmail.com