What we do every day
I took a month off of work over December, which was lovely, although as I write this it is my last day of holiday and I don’t want to look in the inbox of my client email and my business email of a month’s worth of emails. Luckily my voicemail has the option to turn off the ability to leave messages.
I was pleased that I managed to keep into my normal routines, apart from I picked up two different lurgys, mainly cold and cough – the cough is still hanging around. This cough, especially meant that I couldn’t swim, do yoga or play my flute for about ten days.
Because of my wonderful dog I had to keep walking, although I only went to places which didn’t involve hills and I was careful to use my Buff over my mouth to prevent asthma attacks due to a combination of cough, breathing deeply and cold air.
I used to suffer a lot with back troubles, but it has largely gone away over the past year or so. I noticed that while I was cooking it was really beginning to play up and hurt. When I found myself squatting on the floor while hanging onto the kitchen worktop, trying to stretch it out, I suddenly realised that this is how it used to feel all the time and it must be the yoga which was preventing it.
Just ten days of not doing yoga had caused the back problems to return. If I had been honest with myself I could have kept doing a very gentle yoga practice during this time, but I took that cough as an excuse and as a direct result the pain returned. And of course one day of practice didn’t restore it, it has taken five days of practice for it to ease.
And as for my flute! In ten days I completely lost my embouchure – which is the mouth shape you make to play. The higher notes, which were coming with ease, were a squeaky raspberry farty noise. Which is always pleasant! Again, this took quite a few sessions of some dreadful playing before it came back again.
One of my favourite quotes is from Annie Dillon,
how we spend our days is of course how we spend our lives.
It is such a little thing, but so easy to forget. The tiny actions we take each day actually shape our lives.
There is a similar, but rather grander quote from Gandhi
Your beliefs become your thoughts,
Your thoughts become your words,
Your words become your actions,
Your actions become your habits,
Your habits become your values,
Your values become your destiny.
That’s quite intense and scary when you think about it like that, that’s a huge amount of pressure to put on our little thoughts.
Just ten days of no practice meant I lost my lip and my back started to hurt again. Can I extrapolate that out into wider thoughts? That losing my focus for a short amount of time causes me to drift away from how I want to live my life. Every day I need to stay targeted on how I want to live my life, from my thoughts through to my habits, which will inform my values and maybe even my destiny. Or at the very least how my days, and thus my life looks.
What about you?